As I pray for the Lord to bless us with a baby boy and girl, I never ever think of another baby replacing you. You were my first daughter, and I love you. I have a special connection with you that is just for us. You have turned me into a “writer”. You’ve changed me- awakened my heart to God in new ways, and taught me how to love others more deeply.
Sometimes I feel like I’d give anything to hold you again, to touch your face, to hold your tiny beautiful hand… But I know your life was for a bigger purpose- for the souls of *many* to know the Lord and know salvation through faith- and in that sense you are the* first born* among many. And this family is eternal. And although i had said, “I lost” you in my womb, I have gained you for eternity. – now my daughter, but then my sister. And sister, we are *warriors* (for good, against evil) and i will be a double warrior for both you and me.
I love you, Tirzah. so. much.
Your mommy, and *forever sister*.