Dear Tirzah,

As I pray for the Lord to bless us with a baby boy and girl, I never ever think of another baby replacing you. You were my first daughter, and I love you. I have a special connection with you that is just for us. You have turned me into a “writer”. You’ve changed me- awakened my heart to God in new ways, and taught me how to love others more deeply.

Sometimes I feel like I’d give anything to hold you again, to touch your face, to hold your tiny beautiful hand… But I know your life was for a bigger purpose- for the souls of *many* to know the Lord and know salvation through faith- and in that sense you are the* first born* among many. And this family is eternal. And although i had said, “I lost” you in my womb, I have gained you for eternity. – now my daughter, but then my sister. And sister, we are *warriors* (for good, against evil) and i will be a double warrior for both you and me.

I love you, Tirzah. so. much.

Your mommy, and *forever sister*.

First of all, I love Jesus. I am a wife to an amazing man, and mother of three: my 5 year old son Jeremiah, 1 year old son Judah, and my daughter, Tirzah, now 3 years, is waiting for me in the gardens of Heaven. I am also a Veterinarian. The goal of my blog: Creating community around an honest journey through the joy and grief of life. Blog Topics: Child loss and grief; Attachment Theory in Parenting; Mental Heatlh; Christian Theology and Ministry; Veterinary Medicine; and Community Stories.

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